"With what shall i come before the Lord?
and bow down before the exalted God?

Shall I come before Him with burnt offerings,
with calves a year old?

Will the Lord be pleased with thousands of rams,
with ten thousand rivers of oil?

Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression,
the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?

He has showed you, O man, what is good.

And what does the Lord require of you?

To act justly and to love mercy,
and to walk humbly with your God."

micah 6:6-8

so i just came back from my weekly junk food fix with pok. nuggets fries and hot fudge sundae to top it off. reminds me of pri school days. every saturday my dad would give us 10 bucks and we'd walk to our neighbourhood mcdonalds to get upsized meals, milkshakes and ice-cream. what a treat back then. now, i just shudder at the extra jiggle around my waist if i do that regularly.

one more week to exams. the panic is setting in a wee bit but it needs to step up its game. otherwise, i might never finish revision.

the other day i was doing another fluff-brained online quiz and this question made me think abit:

What describes your dream guy?
1. someone who makes you laugh all the time
2. someone who listens as much as he talks
3. someone... blah blah i can't remember the last option

my first instinct was to choose option 2. the sensible logical romantic answer. but i caught myself clicking on option 1 instead.

what a stupid way to waste 5 minutes of precious revision time. but as i said, it just made me think abit. you know, re-evaluate in what i'd really appreciate in a guy.

of course, if the last option went "someone who is smart, rich, thoughtful, funny with a cute ass to boot - oh hell, he's perfect" i wouldn't have to ponder for so long.

usually am a stickler for sticking to the no-nonsense, sensible schedule of working hard during the weekdays and letting my hair down on weekends.

but it's friday today and i've got no plans. no nothing nada. hence i'm wondering why should i follow my own stupid rule of taking a break only when the calendar permits me to. haven't done a single bit of studying since waking up mid-morning and weirdly gleeful about the whole slothful couch potato affair.

nonstop teevee. chowing on comfort food. being utterly useless.

yet the civics & moral classes are haunting me like your mama's nagging that never really goes away even though you try to convince yourself to ignore it. the "what have you accomplished today?" mambo jumbo.

and i haven't, really. thus, if you'd excuse me, i'll have to go put on my running shoes now.

it's hard to break the rules, even if noone is watching.

the new ride came today!

but i can only carress its sexy streamlines lustfully and longingly right now. darn. hopefully i will pass my driving test at first try. it's insane that i can only get a suitable test date and timeslot during end-june.

mugging has come to an all-time slow. my grey matter just refuses to process any more information. and it's not like i'm yearning to go out and play. just weird. the inertia.

on a sidenote, i cannot believe that the number one movie in singapore this week is.. the Pink Panther.

??!!

you'd think that with all the powerhouse films showing this oscar season, this wouldn't be happening. i rest my case

thru the previous post i've concluded that the total readership for my blog is...7. what a great way to find out! hahaha

but still, do try to contribute if you happen to pop by. i assume that you got here cos i let you in on the address, and not by unorthodox ways that are too unimaginable to be spoken of. and thus you know me a fair bit, so will be able to define my failings and strengths pretty accurately.

last week was busy busy. church meetings almost every night (and so was the supper affair, unfortunately), hence a jam-packed revision schedule that had to be followed on the dot. not surprisingly, it worked especially well for me, the plan-ahead freak. that probably contributed to my lackadaisical lounging around the house today, cos of the lack of agenda. i wonder what i should do about it. hmm

had an especially enjoyable day with auntie ilynn last friday - salvation army shopping (which i went crazy at, while she waited patiently - thanks!), prince cafe set lunch at coronation plaza (secondary school memories, thee i treasure), and finally the inevitable trip down town so that she could indulge in some retail therapy as well. it was lovely cos we took buses to all these places, not considering the car ride home. it reminds me of the days when the convenience of an automobile eluded us, and yet the outings were always fun cos more exploration to foreign territories could be done. twas tiring, but still memorable.

am making a trip down to bbdc on wed, to sort out the annoying business of booking my practical test. and hopefully, i'll be able to return the favour soon by cruising down ECP while the person next to me snaps photos of the evening skyline. something that i delight in doing very much.

p.s. i miss you pennylane aka hooters door bitch! ring me up soon :)

i thought i'd never ever do another online personality quiz again, but this is pretty interesting. u get someone else to do it for you, and compare with ur own self-assessment. good self-reflection stuff. we all need that at some point in time. especially when mugging is not an attractive alternative.

so please click the links below and do me a favour. i'd be too glad to return it. :)

my Nohari window

my Johari window

out of the 4 r21 movies i've watched so far, 3 are about boys and boys. if you know what i mean.

have no idea why is this so. my predilection towards gays and trannies and so forth. a soft spot, perhaps? plus it's always fascinating to delve into their secret worlds thru well made films.

i cannot say that Brokeback Mountain touched me, though. granted it was a good movie, worth the dazzling ratings bestowed upon it by the critics. but somehow i just went EURGH (silently under my breath of course) about 1000 times thruout the entire length of it, along with auntie ilynn who was probably doing the same thing beside me - although the irritating bugger next to her might have had something to do with that.

it just felt so wrong. and i couldn't empathize with the characters at all, save for heath ledger, for the simple and stupid reason that i think he's pretty cute. jake gyllenhaal looks like a Joker. i mean the one from the Batman movie. then again he's quite the joker too, seducing poor heath and turning him into a emotional confused wreck. especially so with the ending. no spoilers ahead.

but i digress. the point is, i ain't no prude. the last film i watched about gays (Mysterious Skin) touched me in a way that i cannot describe. you know, the kind of movie that never really leaves you. particular scenes replay in ur mind every now and then, and you'd ponder over them.

but Brokeback just didn't do it for me, i guess. still, it's not like it's awful or anything. lee ang did a great job.

ok nuff of this movie rating business. i forget that exams are but 3 weeks away. bah

so this is a mandatory post to appease my sister, who doesn't like her photo very much. but i do, cos i took it and it exemplifies perfectly the agony one goes thru while driving a manual car in horrendous traffic conditions.

quite cute wat! u don't think so meh pok

watched a simple and beautiful french movie with auntie ilynn tonight. Le Grand Voyage. teared at the end, which is a rare occasion indeed. most of the time i'd attempt to keep the welled-up tears in, but something prodded me to just allow them to roll freely down my cheeks.

worth a watch, definitely. one should probably go on a pilgrimage once in his/her lifetime to distill the soul, but that's a thought for another post another time.

pok

welcome home pok. i know you don like me borrowing your tops without asking so i'll try to cut down to minumum (ok nada). sorry hor. and oh, please wipe the sink after using don let it flood till our contact lens cases are floating like water lillies in a pond.

ok too much information.

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so the other night i was out, very very late. messaged pok and realised she was out at the same time. so i exclaimed, in a rather silly fashion to auntie ilynn "she got car to go home meh??"

then it dawned upon me that she can drive already. and she's 20 (!!) this year. somehow i can only remember pok when she was in primary 1 and i'm not going into vivid descriptions of childhood memories here.

wah.

no more whining. time to start studying. afterall, exams are just 4 weeks away.

and my birthday is in the middle of it all. hurray. who cares about birthdays

on a sidenote, i'm amazed at how some classmates are able to detach themselves from the stressful obligation to devour their notes day and night, and buy themselves plane tickets to faraway exotic destinations. one of them will be gone for 3 weeks, no less.

well, do have fun. while i'll try to find some here, in my dark cold room by the study table.