am in such a fckin bad mood right now i want to scream at the world to LEAVE ME ALONE DAMMIT!

like how my sis put it, i could very well survive in my own little world if everyone would allow me to. yes, if only they allowed me to. i hate checking my hp for messages i hate picking up calls i hate making calls i hate liasing i hate doing admin work i hate askin people to go for this and that and blah i hate fckin hypocrites i hate people who try too damn hard i hate stressing out over all the things i need to get done

but a few choice things keep me happy and sane at times when i'm not left all alone to face the music. to keep myself preoccupied. like below:

my shopping list for bangkok '05

1. swimwear
2. basket bags..bags bags bags
3. lingerie (note for mama, hong mei mei and pennylane)
4. accessories (note a white belt for hong mei mei)
5. makeup, skincare products - dirt cheap over there
6. cds, dvds
7. footwear - wedges, heels, thongs
8. SKIRTS!!! (if only they have my size. i shld live in australia damnation)
9. gifts for prized people back here

i will add to this list if i can remember. if you know of anything else i shld buy pls sms me to remind. the fckin hormonal moodswings may just cause temporary amnesia and i end up buying only redbull t-shirts back or smth.

anyway

i shall grit my teeth and bear with all the shit i have to do for the next 3 weeks, quickly pack my bags and scoot off to bangkok with auntie ilynn, and come back with a vengeance for medicine posting at tan tock seng. lookin forward to that actually. if there's one thing i'm addicted to right now is talking to patients.

how weird, considering that i'm quite socially inept and have a tendency to shun away from strangers. but never mind, am turning into a new stalk probably. besides, patients are the least harmless people around. healthy folks cannot be trusted most of the time. like school people and politicians.

those stupid kids bouncing around in the swimming pool at this unearthly hour are going to get it from me gonna call the security guard house! fckin hell shut the fck up! noisy stupid teenageers probably peeing in my pool wtf