today has been.. well, trying.

but embarrassing should be the conclusion. cos i lost my temper way too many times and for the silliest reasons - ridiculously long hours of lectures & tutorials, minimal time for lunch, and bitchy nurse behaviour. also cussed loudly at everything and anything. no wonder the visitors of the hospital were staring at me in disbelief, wondering where did this doctor-to-be came from. a pirate ship probably. guess they don't want me to be their lokun next time anymore.

once watched an episode of Judging Amy and the mother of Amy had to go for an anger management class as she was told by her colleagues (she's a social worker) that she had a foul temper. the other people in the anger management class began to share about what made them angry. typical stuff like backstabbing colleagues, inconsiderate neighbours, the lack of female toilets around (ok that's my rant) etc etc. things we complain about daily.

but when the mother was called to share, she started to rant about what truly made her angry - children who are abused and raped by their own step-parents, homeless teenagers not given a chance to attend school, parents who divorce for selfish reasons and leave their children broken and lost. and of course, she did not end off without berating the rest of the people for their childish reasons for rage when there are more worthy causes to be pissed about. not petty little glitches in Life that are really inconsequential.

just puts things into perspective innit.

why am i only reminded of this sobering fact after my insane outbursts of crude anger the entire day? learning a lesson in one thing, but putting it into action is another. shall make anger management by divine intervention my sole aim for this week - and beyond.

much thanks to my group mates who understood and tried to calm me down. especially xx :)