today was a rather defeating day. for some reason, all the tutors seemed to have synchronised their comments to that of "your batch is very lousy". the condescending tone, the exasperated sighs, the superiority complex.

despite not being targetted singularly, i still felt the crushing hollowness of not being up to standards - their standards, no less. the standards of doctors who are at least 30 years older than us and have seen and done it all. and me, a rookie with less than a year of clinical experience. a valid excuse? don't know really.

i've not been chagrined by teachers for a very long time now. the last time was probably in primary school, when my chinese teacher rebuked me for my less than perfect ting xie scores. and it's exceedingly sobering i must say.

anyway

looking forward to a midweek breather by watching Corpse Bride sneaks with auntie ilynn. i like to hang out with friends whom i've known for ages now. the comforting silence is an indulgence in a world where meaningless small talk and patronizing laughter are made way too often.