my end-of-posting test is next monday and all i can think of are the million things i wanna buy. well, if i'm going to flunk the test, i might as well flunk it in style. and there is absolutely no reason for anyone to look dowdy even if exams are in full swing. or rather, there is no reason to look dowdy at all, for that matter.

since year 2 of medicine, a strange sense of deepseated calm befalls upon me during every exam/test period. doesn't matter how much i've (or rather, have not) studied, this inexplicable excitement just fills me up from me toes to me head and propels me to go thru the exams with great joy. cos afterwhich i can finally taste freedom and go completely bonkeroos with hedonistic pleasures.

perhaps the trick is Confidence. blind confidence, in that sense, when u don't give no hoot about ur actual ability and just believe that you can do it. and then the battle's half-won. and sometimes, tests are quite fun actually. especially when u don't skim thru the paper and realise that u can't answer like 90% of the questions, then u can kick back and relac one korner. u knoe, just take ur time and enjoy analysing & guessing each question.

hella tired time to sleep.