mmm. i guess this photo post would be a tad weird without some words, so here it is.

by the way, the group photos are of me, my sis and girls from our network. we were practising some dance we had to perform in church camp. i never knew i have two left feet. can't remember dance steps for nuts.

church camp was a great blessing, even just to be there and get to know my sisters in christ better. God is amazing. amazingly patient with a stubborn child like me.

at the camp, i suddenly felt very old. being surrounded by 40+ girlies who are mostly younger than me ( like, 7 years younger. scary) is.. sian. they bounce around and talk so much while i just sit there, motionless and expressionless.

people of my age are getting together, getting married, getting hdb flats. for the first time in about 2 years since my last relationship, i'm actually itching to settle down for good. a miracle, if u ask me, since my heart's so capricious. for some strange reason, i'm not averse to such notions anymore. neither am i eager to prove that i am independent woman.

well, i'm perfectly fine with singlehood. but there's just this longing, i guess. to be taken care of. o well. this kind of thing, you know, must trust God for it.

in any case i'm really excited bout the upcoming bangkok trip with auntie ilynn. i have a feeling we're gonna have a rockin good time together, doing what we do best - SHOPPING. shop shop shop till we drop. no time for toilet breaks, no time for meals. sounds marvellous if you ask me.

downloaded a couple of songs that bring back floods of memories in secondary school :

The Freshman - verve pipe
Mmm mmm mmm - crash test dummies
If You could Read my Mind - some female singer, dance version
Runaway Train - soul asylum
Virtual Insanity - jamiroquai
Bed of Roses - bon jovi

there should be many more. i remember auntie mandy painstakingly writing down the lyrics of lovely songs in her muji metal organizer with her muji pencil. i thank her introducing these songs to me, if not i'd still be singing to su huilun.

i miss those days.