been running so much these days i wonder why haven't i lost like 20 kg already. but the scales only show a miserable 2 kg decrement. after reading ruien's (ridiculous) slimming success on Urban, my eyes turned emerald green with envy and i foamed at the mouth like a rabid dog.

she doesn't exercise one bit and lost 7 bloody kg?! and how the hell does she survive on liquid replacement meals for weeks?! wouldn't that cause chronic hypoglycemia. maybe that's why she looks demented these days. impaired cognitive function.

such a bimbotic mere mortal i am. 4 months of rigorous exercise 4 times a week have left me with nothing but slightly trimmer legs (which weren't very flabby to begin with) and slightly visible deltoid contours. and my boobies are gone while the tummy's still sticking all the way out to johore bahru. at least i have a low chance of breast cancer now.

but who cares! i wanna be a skinny bitch like nicole ritchie!

bah it's so unfair. i'm surrounded by frens who chow on bread & butter / ben&jerry's / chicken rice everyday and are still slimmer than me.

maybe i should get my stomach stapled to the size of a raisin.

anyway my migraine's killing me. practising 200 over mcqs in 2 days is sheer madness. at least it's suppressing my appetite a little.