harder to breathe
i was having dinner with ma and sis at the hawker centre when we chanced upon this queer couple a table away from us.
the girl was sprawled across the guy's lap, appearing to be either asleep or deeply unconscious. the guy looked extremely lethargic as well, with his heavily-lidded eyes and painfully sluggish movements. he just kept on downing beer and smoking his cig with shaky hands.
by this time there were a few people surrounding them, askin the semi-comatose guy if they were okay or somethin. moments later, the girl finally got up from her reclined position. her face was deathly pale and lifeless. she could barely support her head's weight and struggled to open her eyes.
the couple was still wildly oblivious to the curious stares around them. it was as if their souls had gone on an escapade to galaxies lightyears away, and had left the empty shells behind on planet earth.
disturbing, indeed.
"scum of society. no hope. useless. bloody stupid drug addicts."
funny how we're driven by desires and led by temptations. it feels so weak not to be able to resist, yet there's a certain power in doing wat our hearts tell us to.
there's never an absolute explanation for the seemingly foolish choices we make out of our own free will to hurt ourselves. most of the time, it's just us and the consequences in the end.
"who are u to judge if the choices are 'right' or 'wrong' anyway? how would u knoe if we regret wat we've done? the lives we have, we own... u will never understand."
when even ur own family and frens give up hope on u, u can be sure that evryone else will be secretly relieved when u spiral deeper and deeper, and just fade away into oblivion, out of our sights forever.
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i saw two people. lost, confused and vulnerable. their cries for help, ringing loud and clear.
the girl was sprawled across the guy's lap, appearing to be either asleep or deeply unconscious. the guy looked extremely lethargic as well, with his heavily-lidded eyes and painfully sluggish movements. he just kept on downing beer and smoking his cig with shaky hands.
by this time there were a few people surrounding them, askin the semi-comatose guy if they were okay or somethin. moments later, the girl finally got up from her reclined position. her face was deathly pale and lifeless. she could barely support her head's weight and struggled to open her eyes.
the couple was still wildly oblivious to the curious stares around them. it was as if their souls had gone on an escapade to galaxies lightyears away, and had left the empty shells behind on planet earth.
disturbing, indeed.
"scum of society. no hope. useless. bloody stupid drug addicts."
funny how we're driven by desires and led by temptations. it feels so weak not to be able to resist, yet there's a certain power in doing wat our hearts tell us to.
there's never an absolute explanation for the seemingly foolish choices we make out of our own free will to hurt ourselves. most of the time, it's just us and the consequences in the end.
"who are u to judge if the choices are 'right' or 'wrong' anyway? how would u knoe if we regret wat we've done? the lives we have, we own... u will never understand."
when even ur own family and frens give up hope on u, u can be sure that evryone else will be secretly relieved when u spiral deeper and deeper, and just fade away into oblivion, out of our sights forever.
---
i saw two people. lost, confused and vulnerable. their cries for help, ringing loud and clear.
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