i am very stressed.

the seemingly unattainable demands of my future career and doctor tutors are gobbling up my very last shred of confidence, leaving me dumbfounded and unsure of what my next step is to be. it's probably easier to ignore their harsh words (which mean well, of course) and choose to expect less of myself since the new system allows us to get away with a lot more than before. but knowing me, i'd rather fail as i strive to my very best than scrape thru with mediocre effort.

some say that this is a marathon, not a sprint. but i realise that this is a sprint, just a very long one. and my steps are to be quickened and my running technique, to be honed with intelligence, to ensure that my very last breath will be at the finish line.

everyone's gotta find their way to survive the medical world. so much is expected of us, yet so little practical guidance is offered. i need a change of strategy and attitude, find my way, and walk that path with all other cares behind me.

but for now, i must rest. had it with incomprehensible indian accents and smart-alecks who are too damn smart (and cut-throat) for their own damn good.

God help me. i cannot, but You can.