funny how you desire something so much that u burn with passion for it, and think about it relentlessly night and day. then when u finally get the elusive prize, u suddenly realise that it doesn't mean anything anymore. or that it's not what you really want.

amazing how a simple message has revealed my heart towards God more than ever - in a deeper, more painful and raw-er (if there is such a word) way. my true desires lie not in a temporary embrace or sweet-nothings that will be forgotten with time; but within a safe haven where true joys abound, and where my real needs are met.

my heart, i know, will forever be a lonely hunter unless it finds rest in what is Eternal. and i thank God that He is preparing me for my destiny thru this. and that He really cares.

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indeed, His way and thoughts are higher than mine, and the way He shows His love is something i can never fully comprehend - unless i wait patiently and watch what happens.

it could be a heartwrenching process you're going thru now, but take heart, cos the Lord only disciplines those whom He loves. and moulding is essential to fulfill the purpose you were made for - His glory.