daytripper
i whined bout having a fever today. and felt utterly useless after doing so.
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whining is pointless. whining is a sign of weakness. whining is degrading cos u're askin for some TLC from other people and that shows how needy u really are.
at least that's the mantra i repeat to myself all the time. 'don't be a ninny. don't whine.'
some frens like to whine and rant to me. they like to cry on my shoulders and have me mother them and see to their needs. it's all very good really. cos i feel useful and being able to take care of someone is just splendid.
but sometimes, i'd like to be a petulant child, wanting someone to sayang me too.
unfortunately, the act-tough side of me flares up evry single time i even utter a word of whininess, chiding me to shut the crap up and deal with my problems rationally by myself. 'be an independent woman,' this voice says in my head. 'don't smother people with your insignificant problems.'
or during my monthly hormonal surges, i'd vent my pent-up frustrations at home to my family. it's cruel to be a complete asshole to them. i take them for granted. but they're the only people in the whole wide world who'll tolerate my childish nonsense. they allow me to behave like a spoilt brat. a side of me that i'll never display in front of my frens.
a eldest-child syndrome, i believe. and the younger sib is always long-suffering. (sorry honkers)
sorry mom.
sorry dad.
i've been a bitch.
am i digressing? perhaps.
but wat i wanted to say (or rather, wat i don't even know wat i'm trying to say), is that i've decided that i shall whine to God alone. cos His heart is big enough not to judge me. He can listen to me go on and on without running out of patience. He's only a prayer away, and is always ready to hear me out.
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and at the end of it, i'd realise that there isn't anything really worth whining about in Life afterall. cos there's always a way out of a difficult situation (be it physical or emotional), and we never stick around long enough in patient silence and trusting hope to see it happening before letting loose hasty words of frustration.
**
whining is pointless. whining is a sign of weakness. whining is degrading cos u're askin for some TLC from other people and that shows how needy u really are.
at least that's the mantra i repeat to myself all the time. 'don't be a ninny. don't whine.'
some frens like to whine and rant to me. they like to cry on my shoulders and have me mother them and see to their needs. it's all very good really. cos i feel useful and being able to take care of someone is just splendid.
but sometimes, i'd like to be a petulant child, wanting someone to sayang me too.
unfortunately, the act-tough side of me flares up evry single time i even utter a word of whininess, chiding me to shut the crap up and deal with my problems rationally by myself. 'be an independent woman,' this voice says in my head. 'don't smother people with your insignificant problems.'
or during my monthly hormonal surges, i'd vent my pent-up frustrations at home to my family. it's cruel to be a complete asshole to them. i take them for granted. but they're the only people in the whole wide world who'll tolerate my childish nonsense. they allow me to behave like a spoilt brat. a side of me that i'll never display in front of my frens.
a eldest-child syndrome, i believe. and the younger sib is always long-suffering. (sorry honkers)
sorry mom.
sorry dad.
i've been a bitch.
am i digressing? perhaps.
but wat i wanted to say (or rather, wat i don't even know wat i'm trying to say), is that i've decided that i shall whine to God alone. cos His heart is big enough not to judge me. He can listen to me go on and on without running out of patience. He's only a prayer away, and is always ready to hear me out.
**
and at the end of it, i'd realise that there isn't anything really worth whining about in Life afterall. cos there's always a way out of a difficult situation (be it physical or emotional), and we never stick around long enough in patient silence and trusting hope to see it happening before letting loose hasty words of frustration.
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