grandiosity

it isn't often that i have a nightmare. but when i do, i can still feel the tremors the next morning.

last night, i dreamt that i was sitting for my grade 8 piano exam. all over again.

the nauseating clutch in my tummy. cold clammy hands. the sheer helplessness of it all.

and that's why i haven't touched the piano since i took the exam. and passed it, of course.  albeit right on the dot.

so that would be like, 2 years ago?
and after this nightmare, i think we can add another 20 years to my abstinence.

evrytime i walk past the piano in the living room, i still tremble with fear.

see, nightmares do have a profound effect on me.