was going to blog about how disastrous my orthopedics test went today (this one takes the cake, seriously - and so did the past two tests). then it suddenly struck me, amidst my ranting and groaning and whining to xx over the phone, that failing isn't such a big deal afterall.
i can always retake this posting, and it'd be good for me anyway. but i realise that i say that very same thing to myself after the previous tests - "it's ok, i can always retake the posting. it's good for me anyway. i want to retake it...."
so much for second chances. i might as well repeat the entire year.
whatever. it is major bumming time from now on. eat eat eat sleep sleep gym gym gym study. my holiday time to be distributed in the above proportions, please.
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recently commented to hong mei mei that i'm actually quite a boring person. no strong passions for anything, no distinct likes and dislikes, no particular activity that i like to participate in. Life has nothing to offer that i'd aggressively pursue. and my opinions about anything and everything under the sun have no meaning, even to myself.
my motto to living can be summed up in two words : No comments.
she said that it's probably a good thing that i do not dwell upon my existence - who i am, what i like, what i hate, how i want things to be. but sometimes it's hard to describe Me. who is zheng zhimin mindy tay actually? sometimes, i even envy those who are able to define themselves so readily.
it's hard to live in this world where everyone wants to be an Individual, and you feel like you are just colorless.
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dammit, i've been talking about myself for 5 paragraphs! and i thought i was different. HAHA.
i can always retake this posting, and it'd be good for me anyway. but i realise that i say that very same thing to myself after the previous tests - "it's ok, i can always retake the posting. it's good for me anyway. i want to retake it...."
so much for second chances. i might as well repeat the entire year.
whatever. it is major bumming time from now on. eat eat eat sleep sleep gym gym gym study. my holiday time to be distributed in the above proportions, please.
**
recently commented to hong mei mei that i'm actually quite a boring person. no strong passions for anything, no distinct likes and dislikes, no particular activity that i like to participate in. Life has nothing to offer that i'd aggressively pursue. and my opinions about anything and everything under the sun have no meaning, even to myself.
my motto to living can be summed up in two words : No comments.
she said that it's probably a good thing that i do not dwell upon my existence - who i am, what i like, what i hate, how i want things to be. but sometimes it's hard to describe Me. who is zheng zhimin mindy tay actually? sometimes, i even envy those who are able to define themselves so readily.
it's hard to live in this world where everyone wants to be an Individual, and you feel like you are just colorless.
**
dammit, i've been talking about myself for 5 paragraphs! and i thought i was different. HAHA.
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