the biggest test of Life seems to be the test of Faith. what is Faith? Faith is the undying belief in the Hope that everything is under control. It is about knowing that even though u cannot foresee what will happen in the future, you are sure that nothing will shake your inner being. and despite what had happened in the past, it will not deter you from having confidence what lies at the end of the road.

Faith, in essence, is a false concept if God is not in the picture. Who holds your past, present and future? Who purposefully arranged for every single detail of our life to occur in such a complex and mysterious way? Who is the source of everlasting peace and security?

Only your Maker can give you all the answers. Yet, being God who has infinite wisdom, He does not reveal them all the time - because He is God. Sometimes, Life seems to be so unfair and ridiculous that we lose the confidence in running this race. When inexplicable misfortunes befall upon us, we feel that we don't deserve for them to happen to us.

and everybody feels that way, one time or the other. then again, there is no reason why we should believe that we only deserve a smooth-sailing life too.

i can only say that i will choose to believe that God preordained every event in my life, good or bad, in order to make me grow - simply because He loves me. the harder and drier the soil a seed is sown into, the longer and deeper the roots will grow. i refuse to bow down to shit that happens, because i am determined to pass every challenge set before me with flying colours. and this is a choice.

there will be times that i will want to give up, because i am only human and am weak. but during these times of despair and bitterness, since i have nothing else to hold on to, i will cry out to God for help.

and Waiting is mandatory too. God promises to help and He will - just that He did not specify the exact time. if He thinks that we need to learn how to trust Him, He will let us wait. not out of malice of course, but out of Love.

this concept of Tough Love is one that only parents will understand. the difference is that God is not insecure in who He is. human beings will probably relent and attend to their wailing children after 5 minutes for fear that the latter will start to hate them - but not God. He gave us the freedom of will and allows us to make choices. thus He loves us enough to allow us to either wait for Him, or walk off and find our own way. He wants us to choose Him willingly.

But what about sadness, anxiety and fear that inevitably seeps in as the going gets tough? the negative feelings that creep into your heart, binds your soul and cripples you? in short, they are lies that deceive your better judgement. you start to believe that you can never get out of the rut, or that things will never change.

but that's not the truth. Change comes only when you move on. so reject these emotions (by brute force!), because they are useless and will only serve to drag you down further. "think happy thoughts" seems like a cliche, but think about them long enough, positivity will start to fill you up. cos although Life is tough, there are moments of grace and joy too.

Happiness is fleeting, but only Faith is constant. so choose to gain Faith to make it to the end.

let's run this race together.

"But one thing i do, : Forgetting what is behind and straining on towards what is ahead, i press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." phillipians 3:14