wild horses

on a day like this when my hormones are runnin wild, i tend to sink into a lovely hollow of despondence and cynicism.

but perhaps this is the only time when i yearn to pursue much-needed solitude. tho not physically, since i'm stuck in school with hordes of humans evryday, but more of an emotional isolation. delineating my boundaries with all acquaintances and casual friends. reducing my goofy grin to that of a waned smile. ceasing all bitchy behaviour that entertains.

in short, i become Me again.

it's like an epiphany. suddenly i realise how much i've been sapped of my energy by people around me. simply can't go on 'socializing' anymore. or rather, 'interaction' would be more apt. right now, i'd just like some peace and quiet (how cliche) to recharge inner strength, or familiar company with longtime friends, laced heavily with comfortable silence please.

do i thrive on loneliness? definitely not. but at this instant, i wish i could just hide in my cave all day without having to say another obligated hi to someone whom i don't really care about again. and i know that neither does she/he really care bout me either. but that's okay.

at the end of the day, i can only go running back to Him.